Right now, I am 22 weeks pregnant. HUGE reason I have been MIA. I have had a lot of ups and downs with this baby. In the first trimester I was told 3 different times that I was going to miscarry again. So as I waited to miscarry my pregnancy symptoms got stronger, and my belly started to grow. In the back of my mind, I knew that everything was going to be okay. I have had 5 U/S showing a perfect little baby each time.
I don't love being pregnant, honestly # 1 reason. . . I hate getting fat. I am not the cute pregnant girl that gets a basketball baby belly and gains 15/20 pounds. I get big in my arms, my hips, and my face, before I even get the belly. My hips are to wide for my jeans by week 8! I was in maternity pants by 10 weeks. I have gained a total of 15 pounds, at week 20. I have not even stepped on a scale since then because its scary. I will update my weight gain when I feel safe to look at the scale. It sounds so vain, but when you've had an eating disorder and body image is plastered on everything we see its hard to see your body change. Its hard to loose that weight, I know I have been there. The thought of going through it all again is scary, but I know that with a lot of hard work and effort I can get back to my healthy weight and my healthy body.
Once you loose the weight, then what? Nobody really talks about whats next? You get down to your goal weight and it feels amazing. Are you happy with your body? How do you feel? Do you want to set another goal of loosing 5 more pounds?
Its a personal decision, but my goal is to keep the weight off. Keep a healthy lifestyle that not only makes me feel better but I can also push myself to do more and do better.
So my goals for this blog are to keep myself motivated, by helping others that are in the same shoes as me. My whole reasoning behind getting certified as a trainer was to help others. Why not help myself as I am going, right? I will update my progress or failures :)
I changed my instagram. I really only want to focus on fitness and my pre/post baby body. Follow me @fitmarissab on instagram.
18 Weeks
21 Weeks
